just a sad day...

there's so much i want to get out on here...good and bad. i feel like i'm continually waiting for "enough time" to write. but...as always...the boys schedules seem to be opposite (one asleep while the other's awake..then vice versa). so just a prayer request....

i guess i waited a couple days to long to write. at the beginning of the week i was so positive about life - felt like nothing could get me down... this week's been tough and i find myself really frustrated. a couple people i know are really struggling right now - mainly cancer (i'm SO SICK of everyone having cancer!) - and it looks like they don't have much time left and i SO wish there was something i had to offer them...

today my aunt's heart stopped. my grandma found her on the floor of her apt and called the ambulance...her heart didn't actually stop until she was at the hospital thankfully- they revived her and right now she's in surgery to put in a pace-maker..she probably doesn't have a lot of time left even if the surgery is successful...but i'm praying for a miracle. she's had a lot of health problems lately...and getting older...but just recently she's begun to let my family into her life (she's VERY independant - to the point of almost being a recluse) and recently i've just felt a real NEED to know my family better...it's been great and now i care about her SO deeply. anyways - if you would pray for her i'd appreciate it...more news to come...eventually...

jenn