crash...

i had so much that i wanted to tell you about the last month...i think it's going to be a while to i get to that. i've had the worst week of my summer and i'm just running low. the full story to come later - but i guess you could just say that i'm learning a whole lot about "grace" (or more the fact that God's grace and man's grace are SO different)...the fact that some people will never let you off the hook, that your "friends" can turn on you and you can suddenly feel they're strangers in a matter of seconds, that your past can still end up in the rumor mill 5 FREAKING YEARS after the fact...but as a result of trying to do damage control (SO tough to put your cards on the table) that just when you think you've lost it all...you can end up with an ally.

lonely and disappointed...but still here...

this song has been on the radio a lot and i like the words...so i decided to post it (cause i don't really have words of my own like this yet)...

He Will Carry Me \ Mark Schultz

I call, You hear me
I’ve lost it all
And it’s more than I can bear
I feel so empty

You’re strong
I’m weary
I’m holdin’ on
But I feel like givin’ in
But still You’re with me

chorus:
And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will
Ever need
And He will carry me

I know I’m broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You’re always with me

chorus

And even though I feel so lonely
Like I’ve never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said you’d see me through
The storm